I never thought that the encounter with my daughter was so embarrassing and entangled, and did not even give me chance to think about how to be a good mother. It was so sudden that when love went away, my child came quietly. At that moment, it was true, not happiness but pain.
The mood at the time could not be described in words, unmarried, bad mental condition, failed emotional status, and family members’ incomprehension. The child was like a straw that crushed my life. All I wanted to do was to end this life. Even want to end this painful life with this uninvited guest.
In anxiety, I did not hesitate to choose to go to the hospital, want to take this child away, to get over all the unpleasant past. But my physical condition was very bad at that time, the doctor advised me not to give up the child. The doctor said that if I give up the child in such a situation, I would lose not only a small life, but also my right to be a mother in future, so he advised me to keep this child.
Life is always full of drama. I seem to be standing at a crossroads. I don’t know which direction to choose. There are dead-ends in front of the cliffs, but I don’t have a choice. Just when I was worried about my current situation, the company’s termination pushed me to another desperation. Without income, how can I change to protect myself and protect this child who must be born?
Just when I felt that life had fallen into a situation where I could not help myself, I met Jment Lim through the recommendation of a friend. I only knew that someone had set up a nonprofit organization for expectant mothers to provide special help to people like me who was in trouble .
The first time I communicated with Jment Lim, I was particularly touched when he said: “Don’t be afraid, we will be with you to find ways to deal with financial difficulties. Don’t worry about this. My biggest worry is your mentality. I hope you can accept your children. Only when you really accept your children only you accept yourself. After accepting yourself, you can find true courage to create a better and happier future.”
I was surprised that a man can tell the crux of our heart in a pinch. In fact, we are not afraid of the arrival of this child, but more afraid of not being able to face the next life well rather to face the new born child.
In the public welfare community organized by Jment Lim, I know many expectant mothers who are in the same situation like me, many mothers who have successfully overcome their difficulties. We encourage each other, help each other, and also talk to each other. The experience of being close to each other helps me remember that there is space for relief in my inner grievances and pain. Slowly, I began to enjoy the happiness of being a mother.
In order for our group of expectant mothers to have a smooth labor, Jment Lim provided us with material support, including the labor costs, and he tried to find ways to help. The most important thing is that under his arrangement, some psychological counselors joined in. When I was at a loss, they used professional knowledge to help us find our future step by step.
Opening my heart slowly, I started to quietly wait for the arrival of the child. The initial panic, escape and fear were gone. More was to calmly wait, to accept, to expect, and to feel. The child now is 2 years old and I have a new career that belongs to me, I used to think this is a dream, but as the child’s “mom”, it’s real and I’m happy.
I am very grateful for what Jment Lim has done for us. He is the one who let me accept myself, accept my baby, and finally in this acceptance, I have achieved the best part of my life.
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